So I'm just going to preface this post by saying that I know people say this all the time BUT this has been the hardest 3 days I've ever experienced. On Wednesday one of my best friends Rebbecca was admitted to the hospital 7 months pregnant with something wrong with the baby. We come to find out he is really sick and has a lot of fluid around all of his vital organs. Not good. He had to be delivered today at 2pm by c-section. He weighed 6.5 lbs (just so you get an idea of how bad it was 2 of those lbs were water).
It was touch and go all day today which was incredibly scary. I felt so helpless sitting in my basement office in the dark next to my cell phone and thinking "ring damn you, ring" anticipating the next call from Becca's mom. Finally tonight I was able to go in and see Mike and Rebbecca in the hospital. I also got to see Lincoln in the NICU. He was the most beautiful baby I've ever seen. I don't know what else to write except that this experience has been the biggest testimony of Jesus Christ's love and God's perfect timing and grace in my life and my friends lives. Mike and Rebbecca and amazing; such calmness and strength in a devastating time. It was like music getting to hear Rebbecca tonight telling me that God is faithful and working in their lives through this and to hear Mike telling Rebbecca that this was God's child and if He took Linc tonight, they would be OK. Amazing. Amazing.
Abide with meAbide with me; falls the eventide;
The darkness deepens; Lord with me abide.
When other helpers, fail and comforts flee,
Help of the helpless, abide with me.
Thou on my head, in early youth didst smile;
And, though rebellious, and perverse meanwhile,
Thou hast not left me, oft as I left Thee,
On to the close Lord, abide with me.
I need Thy presence, every passing hour.
What but Thy grace, can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless
Ills have no weight, tears lose their bitterness
Where is thy sting death? Where grave thy victory?
I triumph still, abide with me.
Hold Thou Thy cross, before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom, and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth's vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, Lord, abide with me.